I don't know which one do I really want . What about neither?

My Painkiller

And here I am, sick again. I don't want any kinds of medicine; I don't need any kinds of medicine. All I want right now is to see you, and yes, I really need you. So pathetic to say that I don't care who your heart belongs to, I just want you that much. I'm in so much pain, I just need you; my painkiller.

Can't Never Have Two Endings ;

Here's a glimpse of my sister's wedding ; Here's a few things I can't help but complain about life. This wedding is really grand and beautiful but to be in Malaysia for a month, I lost a few opportunities I will do anything to have right now. Out of all, the one I wanted most is gone, forever gone. Sometimes, death is the only thing we see as a real ending, forever ending but I find it different. Feelings is what forever gone. I guess, I am the only one holding the thread from one side. You already let it down, moved on to another thread. And here I am, missing your presence everyday. When people ask if I still care, do I still want to have anything to do with you, all that's left for me to said was "No" Because life is not always in the palm of your hand. Love is not one plus one, hardwork and effort will not get one person anywhere unless the other half tries as well. It's a game played by two.

My Fairytale

Because I know what kind of person you are, how you will react, if you will ever regret. And I know, I've only been living in my own fairytale, where you're with me still. Where we could lead our life together, happily ever after.