slave's burfday party (hotpot)

So drunk, fml .
I don't remember half of the things happened yesterday, it's like my brain's busted.
I heard that I played basketball, danced, puke and a lot of stuff . And I woke up in slave's house . GEEZ

But it's not that bad, since at least those guys didn't try doing anything to me ?
What's worse was I heard that I was being carried like an object -.-"
FML FML FML T.T

surprise

he talked to me again
this time, just in time to reply him . how weird
there isn't any extra affection towards him; typical conversation .
he said he misses me, i can see the definition beneath those words . not true :)

please don't say what you don't mean, i wasn't expecting anything from you ><
just quit lying to me :/

weather is getting cold ..
urgh hate this, everytime the weather turns cold, so does my emotions ><
S.A.D. ; seasonal affected disorder
i think i need to consult a psychologist as well, geez .

imsoselfish.

I don't want to get close with anyone . Once I get close to you, I won't let you go easily >.< "
It's a weakness, but it's also a strength . IDK what to do T3T
It's like, I don't want my best friend to be stolen away, and for a fact I know, I can't be so selfish and greedy to keep one person alone to myself. They could pursuit happiness in their life the way they want to, either in love or what-so-ever . But still, even though that's what I tell myself, I, myself still have a hard time cooping with whatever reasonable argument I came up with ...

But after reading Sue's blog, I think my life is not really that hard . At least, putting up a smile is way easier than having to deal with family problems, financial and stuff all at the same time . Compare to her, my life is so much more chill .

Urgh...

emotionless

im speechless, he took off that post :)
but i rmb evry word in tat status clearly .

anyways, get bck to recent life. like today, omggggggg MsPacker is nt here again. and i get to socialize wih a couple of ppl in class like usual >:]
wuh surprises me is tat storm actuali wud smile/laugh infront of me . like u know, hes cold infront of me . today i sat nex to him during lunch cuz i cnt find my frenz, and when i open the bottle of water, the water dripped down to his shirt and yeah.. he didn't get mad, instead he laughed LOL

idk wuh im saying reli.. -.-"
buh forget it, just get bck to reality. life is nt treating me tat bad ?
just when i dunhav a smile on my face, evrybody just lingers around me and keep askin wuhs goin on, am i okay and stuff... its like, im hapi evrybody's so worried ><
though, i didn't tell them why was my mood so greatly affected .

back in time

My mind is very occupied lately with piles of works in this and that. I have absolutely no time to think about unnecessary things :)
That's, until today ? LOL
I was being nosy and I went on facebook using char's account and went into my profile through char's facebook. I saw a comment from "him"... A smiley face..... ?

Like seriously, are you kidding me ?? A smiley face ? Then I go into his profile and check his posts, one of them say stuffs that caught my attention greatly. Honestly, not trying to be conceited, I'm 80% sure that post is for me. Either the time, setting, structure and everything is like speaking to me.... >.<

I CNT LET IT GO JUST YET . Why is timee alwizzz pauseeddd in my own lil world ?! Cant I just honestly move on, and do something beneficial to the present ?!

Move on, Carmen, move on..

october :) ~

everything is going welllll :D ~
TODAY RAINED SO HARD THOUGH, I GOT SOAKED WET T.T
&&i got late to school again, sigh